I am with you Daddy..

“Just leave me alone dad”,she shouted insanely.

His soul teared apart.He stepped forward, sat beside her.

She was crying endlessly,her tears hitting the photograph in her hand.

He touched her shoulder,she blasted out her entangled painful emotion with the touch,

hugged him tightly and cried “Why dad….Why he broke my heart...?”

He took out his wallet, looked at the faded photograph.

She turned her moist eyes,”Mom”.

”You know she also broke my heart”

“How”

“When you were two year old .She died, left me alone. And I was all broken”

“You hold my hand within your little fingers, smiled and said in your broken words,"I am with you Daddy”

A tear rolled out of her dad eye.She forgets her pain. Photograph in her hand fall on the floor.

She moved her hand forward to hold his tear.He stopped her, took her soft hand in his hands, and said “From that day you have nurtured my broken heart and now it’s my turn.......",smiled with his teary eyes,"....I am with you honey.!!".

P.s. Something I wrote long back

I still remember days you have forgotten

I still remember days you have forgotten

rendezvous in the corner of old coffee house
longs hours waiting on the last bus stop
silly fights under the shade of gulmohar
senseless dancing on the street in the rain

I still remember days you have forgotten

crumpled letters stuffed in pocket of jeans
dried lilies pressed in the pages of novel
faded photograph in the frame of wallet
endless chats on the terrace in midnight

I still remember days you have forgotten

morning train parting us several cities away
unanswered phone calls growing day by day
tears on the crisscross lines of the palm
yearning back for winters of November

I still remember days you have forgotten

P.s. This was my first guest post on May 26th on 'Poetic cries of interpersonal expression' by Pulkit Tiwari.Do follow him because he is just an amazing writer.

..little girl and moon..

"No dada please don't open that window",shouted his five year old daughter

"Why darling..it is suffocating here inside your room"

"No dada you don't know that round thing in the sky peeps into my room every night"

"What...oh ho that's moon darling"

"Whatever it is...he scares me every night with his different shapes"

"Nobody is scared of him..he come here every night just to take care of my sweet child"

"No..he scares me...how can he care about me"

"Don't get mad ..OK as you wish",he closed the window and left her room

Next night when she was closing her window,she saw he was not there in the sky.She wondered what happened to him.When for next two days he didn't came there.

She got curious so she went to her dada room to ask about moon and her dada told,"You have hurt him darling,he used to take care of you and you have misunderstood his love and care.. that's why he is upset with you".

Her innocent little heart felt bad.She ran to her room near the window, looked at the dark sky, closing her eyes she murmured ,"I am sorry..I have hurt you..Please come back.." and soon clouds hiding him parted away letting moonlight to fall on her.As she opened her eyes he smiled within her twinkling little eyes forever.

dream

Every night you come
to sleep by my side
watch me dripping
into the dream world
smile encircle your eyes
when I smile
you hold me close
when nightmare shakes me
you play with my hairs
you cuddle my skin
listen to my rhythmic heart
when first ray of light
twitter outside my window
I wake up
with you missing
your fragrance is everywhere
but you are not there
and then my dream end
dashing me back
into this real world
where you are far...far away

..on the sand of past..

on the sand of past

scratches of pain scream
aloud of days gone
when tears drowned my heart
into deep ocean
scars bleed your love still
when nights are alone
on the lonely path
often I walk with your love inside
I wonder around on that cliff
where you left me alone
finding answers to questions
you never gave

..surrender..

You never agree on my words.We always have long hours of fights and in the end it me who always have to surrender.

Words over words
you bundle them up
on my mind
one after other
rights or wrong
you want just
yourself to win
I am all abashed
when hours passes
you still never stops
not to surrender
is always I try
but what you do
always in the end
with sparkling eyes
often hit me hard
mesmerizing me
to surrender
right at the moment
you may think
as if I am a loser
but just for this
spark in your eyes
I want to be a loser
for every fight

Smile with sadness

There is always sadness hidden within his smile,which his eyes often fail to hide.I can always see that sadness sitting in the corner of his eyes.Every time I see him smiling I feel like pushing that sadness out of his eyes.But inspite of so many efforts I still fail to do so.Whenever I reach so close to those eyes something very strong force me back and I am all left with traces of his smile amalgamated with his silence sadness.Hope someday I will conquer over his sadness.

behind those fearless eyes
pain still speaks aloud
ripping me apart
away far away
I still wait
for
that smile
falling in drops on
my sweet troubled soul
pacifying my quench of peace
that often I search in your eyes