..end..

I ripped my heart out

and let it bleed

till the last drop

of your love

could sweep out

yet frail heart

pumped your love

without single

drop of blood

so much love

swooned the soul

poisoned me whole

yet sinking breath

hugged you close and
world witness my death
right at your doorstep
strangling in your
unfinished eternal love

She

when she get through pain
you were born,she was your mother
when you went to school
she worked chores,she was your sister
when you worked in office
she build your home,she was your wife
when you grew old
she supported you,she was your daughter
when your life was lonely
she hugged you,she was your girlfriend
when day was busy like hell
she lend you coffee,she was your friend
when your spirits and morals are abysmally low
she was the force to make you grow
lean she may be in the appearance
deep within she is strong and bold
amidst the whirlwind of life
she will always stand by your side
with a dash of love and care
she will bless you entire world
driving you to grow every hour
under a bliss of dazzling sunshine

..Love is forever..

"Just leave my hand, Aadi ”, she was all drenched in rain. Standing under the cloudy dark sky, rain pouring them down, unable to wash those tacit emotions in her eyes.” What’s that you are hiding”, he tightly hugged her into his arms gazing into her eyes, trying to read that rare gesture in her eyes. Her puffed eyes were full of those feelings then tears. The more she tried to hide more prominent these became. Few seconds after understanding those feelings, his heart felt heavy, his trembling voice inquired,” Is it true”. Now she knew there's no reason left to hide it anymore and why did even she tried to do so. She always knew that it won't take him long to know what’s troubling her lot. She freed herself from his arms and turned her back moving away from him.” Where are going, Tiya?” .Her heart ached with never ending pain and eyes shed tears that mingled with drops of rain, without turning back to him as it was difficult to face him now, she said,” Away from you.." .Her breath stopped for a second and then uttered the last words that choked in her throat "..forever..”.

His eyes widened in shock and his heart stopped beating. He stepped towards her just standing face to face, looking straight into those eyes,"..Why..".This was the question she was scared of. But somehow she knew within, that whatever be the fear she has to do this, she has to face it, though it may be killing her inside. She closed her eyes and with all effort blasted out that fear to him, "Because my feelings for you have changed and it getting difficult day by day to fake in front of you like a friend. I don't want to hurt you.” Her eyes were red with pain, her soul was shivering. They both stood there getting drained in rain, drops of rain penetrating through their soul. Rain was draining, lightening was screaming madly. Nature stood there like an audience, catching a glimpse of emotional catastrophe which was drowning them forever. For minutes they stood there staring into each other’s eyes and they re-lived their life within those minutes right from the moment they met till here. Each and every moment, every single thought they shared echoed from the past. These echoes were so loud that even lightning failed to distract them. She stepped her feet towards him. He turned his head towards her ears and said,” Will you be able to live without me”.

It was yet another pang to her heart.Her breath again refused to beat for a second with the thought of being without a person who was part of her heart and how will she be able to live by killing that part of her heart.It was impossible even to think of it and how difficult would it be to live,she don't know and that's what her heart murmured to him,"..I don't know..".

She moved away with heavy steps ahead. But he held her hands tightly and pulled her towards himself.” You can’t do this to me .I haven’t given you right to do this yet.” He tightened his grip on her hands and she felt the instant pain.But the pain in her heart was far more pinching . His eyes were both red with anger and tears, his breath seems to be irregular. He pulled her more closely towards himself. They were close enough to listen each other’s heart beats that was accelerating every second. His voice was more painful,” You can’t do this. How will I live without you? You can’t alone decide the fate of our relationship. You can’t do this…”.Suddenly his voice was weak, all his anger was overcome by the pain in his heart. He loosened his grip on her hands and bogged down on her feet. His eyes were soaked in tears. His heart ached so much to make him physically weak. Bending his head on his knees he sat there begging her not to leave.

.....to be continued....

..drop of tear..

A drop of tear
melted down in your arms
when your hands caressed me
and took me closer to your heart
your heart beats embraced my ear
soothing my pain forever
your touch broke me up
into burst of joy
and when your fingers
moved through the gaps of my fingers
my life felt complete
nothing ever existed for me then
in your arms I lost myself
no world no desire no hope
just blissful heaven

..tu hai kahin..

tu hai kahin
in baadlon main chuppa
in bundon se tu
hai mujkho chu rahan
main door hu bahut
tujhse to kya
tu paas bahut hai
mere har lamha
har saans main
ehsaas hai tera
milo se nahi
hoti dooriyan
waqt rukh mordega
ek roj kabhi
yeh faasley bhi
simmat jayenge kabhi
yeh boondein phir
aise hi barsegi
yeh hawayen phir
aise hi jhoomegi

..Rain..

let this rain drench

my soul forever

washing away my

anger, pain, fear, tears

far away forever

like a drop of water

on a barren land

let it end my

thirst forever

may I be lost

under this

dark cloudy sky

forgetting all

ties of responsibilities

let these drops of water

free me and

let this moment

be paused forever

I am with you Daddy..

“Just leave me alone dad”,she shouted insanely.

His soul teared apart.He stepped forward, sat beside her.

She was crying endlessly,her tears hitting the photograph in her hand.

He touched her shoulder,she blasted out her entangled painful emotion with the touch,

hugged him tightly and cried “Why dad….Why he broke my heart...?”

He took out his wallet, looked at the faded photograph.

She turned her moist eyes,”Mom”.

”You know she also broke my heart”

“How”

“When you were two year old .She died, left me alone. And I was all broken”

“You hold my hand within your little fingers, smiled and said in your broken words,"I am with you Daddy”

A tear rolled out of her dad eye.She forgets her pain. Photograph in her hand fall on the floor.

She moved her hand forward to hold his tear.He stopped her, took her soft hand in his hands, and said “From that day you have nurtured my broken heart and now it’s my turn.......",smiled with his teary eyes,"....I am with you honey.!!".

P.s. Something I wrote long back