future..present..past..

..flashes of memories peep out of the curtains of future..
..charm of happiness blushes on the face of present..
..success of life raised from the failure of past..

..Over a cup of coffee Part II...

..continued from "Over a cup of coffee"

He called waiter for one more cup of coffee.She too felt a desire to have one.As he asked waiter to bring one more cup of coffee,she added
"Make it two"
"Ok mam"
He gave a smile,again bend his head and continued scribbling in his notebook.She was getting bored.She wanted to know what he was writing in that notebook.After few minutes , her curiosity break heights and finally she blasted,"What are you scribbling in that notebook...???"
He raised his head,there was so depth in those blue eyes,that anyone would find themselves lost there.
"I am writing a letter to my best friend,Sheetal"
Somehow his words rescued her from getting lost in those eyes.She drifted her eyes away from his eyes and rested them on the letter.
"Ok so is she far away from you"
"no not so far"
"then why are you writing this letter to her"
" actually,she is little bit angry with me"
"but then why letter why don't you call her or meet her",she was getting puzzled.
"She will not talk to me,neither will she meet"
"You did something wrong"
"No...actually that's what I want to know from her,that what mistake I did ,that she is so angry with me."
She started wondering how can a friend do like this, stop talking to your best friend without any cause.He took a sip of coffee and looked straight at her wandering eyes.
"That's why I came here daily and write a letter to her"
He paused for a second and continued his streams of words with bit of excitement,
"You know this is the place where I met her first time ,and this same coffee we took that day..",for a second he was lost in those beautiful moments of past.But his series of flashes was knocked by her scream,
"What you write letter daily..how long you have been writing these letters.."
"hmmm.. 3 months 12 days"
Her eyes widened with shock,"..and she hasn't responded even to your one letter"
His voice was little bit heavy now,"No,she hasn't replied yet"
He took a last sip of his coffee,tore that letter from notebook,folded it and put inside the envelope,wrote her address on the envelope. She was still wandering with shock that what kind of a friend he is having who hasn't replied even to his one letter. He took his bag and notebook gave that same dazzling smile,"Thanks a lot for allowing me to sit here..it was nice talking to you"
She tried to smile too but somehow her heart was not feeling good,"Its ok"
He stood up and stepped out of the door.She saw him leaving,her eyes stared at his back.When he was out of her sight,she turned her eyes towards her coffee.She felt something near her feet,bend down and picked up the folded paper.
"This must be his letter, may have fallen from his notebook".She thought, turning her eyes towards the exit door of cafe.But he was already gone.Somehow she couldn't hold her holds from reading that letter.As she opened it and her eyes ran through that letter her heart started pumping furiously.That letter said,

Aryan,

Please stop sending these letters.Your letters have loaded my letter box.I have told you so many times that Sheetal is no more.She is dead.She can't come back.Come to your senses Aryan.Face this reality.She is no more to read these letters.

Sheetal's Mom

Tears rolled out of her eyes.Her heart felt a pangs of pain.She turned her moist eyes away from letter at the glass window of the cafe.Amidst the mist of tears,far from other side of road,she saw Aryan infront of letter box, he kissed the letter in his hand and dropped it into the letter box.

..Over a cup of coffee..

Her heart was throbbing inside her chest.She placed her hand to calm it down,but it seems restless.Unlock her cell and looked at the watch 3:20p.m.,just five minutes more."Take a deep breath sweetie",her inner track murmured.She took a deep breath.Mind was wandering here and there,somebody knocked her stream of thoughts,"Your order mam".
"Cud you please wait for five more minutes I am waiting for someone".
"Sure, mam"
She dashed her eyes around the cafe.Almost every table was occupied with lovely couples,caressing each other.Suddenly somebody obstructed her eyes.She raised her eyes,deep blue eyes with dazzling smile.There was so much seduction in his smile that she was out of her senses for a second,she couldn't hear what he was saying to her , was just staring him continuously.Her inner track screamed loudly "Hey what are you doing".That voice hit her ears,and she was out of his seduction and saw him uttering "Excuse me can I sit here".
Something inside her was dying to shout "yes,sure you can".But her ego altered her words
"But I am expecting someone within five minutes"
"I know,but I will just take 5 minutes I need to have a cup of coffee and since all tables are occupied I can't help myself without giving you inconvenience".She smiled and asked him to have seat.
She turned her eyes towards the glass window,but somehow from the corner of her eyes she tried grasp everything he was doing.He called waiter and asked for a cup of Cappuccino.Opened his shoulder bag and took out black dairy and started scribbling something.When she was trying hard to look at what he was writing her phone started vibrated inside her jeans pocket.She took out her phone saw her mom calling,"hello mom"
"hello sweetie,have you reached there ..did he came there"
"Mom,I am already here,he has not came yet"
"He must have got late,he will be there ....oh beta just hold down he calling .."
"k..mom".She holded her call for a second and then her mother told that he will be there in 20 minutes.She Screamed "20 minutes more,I am already getting late for office,I told you I don't wanna meet this guy..."
"hold on beta cool no problem he will be there ..".Her mood started fluctuating...She was really angry she disconnected her phone in anger.Everything was fuming inside her mind.She wanted to just leave that place.Amidst her anger she forget that,he was still sitting there.He forwarded a glass of water towards her,she raised her eyes,"It will cool you down".
His sweet voice somehow struck her heart and melted down her anger.She took a glass of water.He flashed his dazzling smile.
"Thanks a lot"
"Now can I have one more cup of coffee,since you have to wait for 15 minutes more."
"OK,no problem have it"

...to be continued..

..kuch to..

..kuch to aaj keh rahin hai yeh hawayein..

..kuch to shararat to kar rahin hai fizayein..

..sab mand-mand muskura si rahin hai..

..mere sawaloon ko uljha si rahin hai..

..kya yeh kisi meethi si khushi ka ehsaas hai..

..ya phir se boondo ko tutne ki pyaas hai..

..in patthon main simti yeh kaisi yaadein hai..

..in rahon par padey yeh kaise nishaan hai..

..yeh kis ore sab ishara si kar rahin hai..

..mere umeedon ko yeh saja si rahin hai..

..kya yeh kisi meethi si khushi ka ehsaas hai ..

..ya phir se boondo ko tutne ki pyaas hai..

..kyon badloon ki haasi itni bheki hai..

..kyon phoolon ki khusboo inti mheki hai..

..kaise hai yeh khwaab jo dikha si rahi hai..

..mere ankhon ko need se uthaan si rahi hai..

..kya yeh kisi meethi si khushi ka ehsaas hai ..

..ya phir se boondo ko tutne ki pyaas hai..

..So...!!!!

"So, you are leaving me alone

After holding my hands so long you want me to walk alone.

I m sorry I never learnt so and will never ever do so...."

My heart and mind are at war,
mind keep manipulating things,
heart keep nullifying them,
this war is tearing my heart down,
and I still want my heart to win.

..Last touch..!!

My hands touched her hands last time and my eyes drenched with endless tears.I turned my face away from her and moved away with that touch into the huge crowd at the railway station.I felt so empty as if my soul freezed with her last touch.I wanted to run back steps and hold her tightly,I wanted time to stop there,I wanted to live those moments forever.I wanted scream and scold God for making me stand at this stage of life.But,I failed b'coz I knew nothing can stop this.I have to face anyhow.With blurred vision as heavy step I came back to the place where I left my luggage.I wanted to cry loudly but somehow I had to hold them .I sat on my bedding facing my back from my batchmates who were standing their and let my tears to fall.I was always scared of this day.Once I was scared to step foot on this place and now I am scared to leave this place.How come this strange place become so attached I don't know.Actully it was not this place but the beautiful memories which I treasured here made me attached to this place.My beautiful spicy moments of four years of my graduation.I was afraid to leave my friends who made these moments.Tears kept on rolling ,it was the most difficult moments.I look at my hands that holded the last touch of my friend,Ananya.Bending my head down I started crying endlessly.All past moments started flashing through my eyes.Right from my first step to the last with the blend of all laughter,fights,tears.Suddenly in between these flashes I saw somebody forwarding a hankerchief in front of my face."You can take this I have washed today only".I moved my head and looked with my moist eyes to Omi and this sweet gesture of him brought a tinge of smile admist a peck of tears.It felt like someone kept a warm hand on my sinking heart.I was bit relaxed to see him sitting infront of me with the pristine smile and his smile made me realise that I still had one friend left to walk few steps with me.Whistle of the train distracted my series of thoughts and I got up to carry my luggage.The trains stops there only for five minutes,so everybody started running to catch train.As we had a lot of luggage we all picked up our luggage fastly and threw it at the entrance door of boggie and then entered the door stepping on beddings.As there was so much rush inside so we sat at that entrance door only.It was not that we could not have got space to sit inside but we all were so emotionally drenched that we prefered to be away from crowds and be with our lonliness.As I sat on the bedding train began to move.I felt sudden pang inside my heart.My eyes instantly moved towards the entrance door to see that place last time.But I couldn't ,I saw Omi standing there obstructing my view.He stood there as train slowly started moving away from that place.I could see his back only but could feel the emotional fight he must be going through.I shouted,"Hey,come here".He turned back with his pale face.My heart craved for an unanswered question Why are men not allowed to cry?I said,"You are crying?".He replied in the pale voice,"U didn't let me cry" and I realised it's not only me who is facing this separation.So,the journey of four years ended here.Four year of a life out of home,of making best pals,of scoring less scores,of ultimate pleasure.It took four years to make friends and just a second to loose them.It's not that they will never be my friends anymore but they will never be so close anymore.As the train started accelerating my every single moment started moving backward and my path started turning to the future which was unpredictable.The future which is still to be lived.How far I will carry ahead this tinge of separation I don't know but I know one thing whenever I will turn back to this day,a drop of tear will fall from my eyes.

P.s. Last day of my college,those tears are still wet,which do sometimes fall from my eyes when I look back at my beautiful journey.I miss you all n I love you all...