Some junk..

                       

Mistakes are part of life..sometimes they teach us lessons we never forget in our lifetime..and sometimes they lead to other mistake...sounds funny but its true..some mistakes are so tempting..resisting them is hard.I too had made mistakes..mistakes that had hurts someone to the point that had led them to solitary confinement. May be that what sins I am paying for..or may be there are other yet to be smashed into my face.I always end up fighting with myself when my mistakes are on trail in court room of my heart and problem is...this trail never ends..it always give birth to some more question waiting for answers that don't exist.Its long time now and I am fed up of all this fighting for all those mistakes..they are done..no matter how hard I try..I can't rewind time back and undo all of them.Damage has already been done.No point wasting time now.So quitting is better option then constant fighting.Let life keep on screwing me for all mistakes...and let me keep on trying to make atleast better mistakes.

PS: Some weird thought are hitting my mind these days...more I try to sweep them away  more they keep on piling up on my mind.

My Princess

 “Hey daddy, why are you standing there?”

She turned back from the mirror to look at her father who was stealing her glance in the mirror right from door.

As she moved forward in her floral wedding gown his heart skipped a beat and tear encircled his eyes.

“So, how I am looking?” she said with her innocent childish smile on face.

He took her face in his hands and kissed her forehead.

”Just like my princess...”, whirlpool of emotions encircled his heart, flashing every single moment of her childhood in front of his eyes.

Holding her hand he took her on aisle to escort her to James. His heart felt pangs of separation at every step. When they reached, his body stiffed. All dressed elegantly in white and with all respect James greeting him and took out his hand to hold Alice hand for lifetime. His hand turned cold and his face pale .He kept staring at James hands, making his grip stronger at Alice hand.

It took a minutes for James to read his sad eyes. Looking once to Alice and then to her father, with  polite assuring smile he said,” Dad, don’t worry I will love her just like your princess”.

Tear from the corner of his eye rolled down. His heart soothed at touch of James assuring eyes, with  sad smile on his face he took Alice hand and put into James hand. Holding both hands in his hands he looked into James eyes,” I know James, you will love my princess more than I do”.

" Not more than you Daddy,not more than you...", Alice yelled  in cracking voice with teary eyes.She hugged him tightly and they sobbed  into each other arms till their love melted their tears.

I have lost faith in love

 

I have lost faith in love

bundles of hope thrusted into rusted trunk
crisscross path woven on the tapestry of mind
unending quest of cindered desires
endless questions behind barricade of thoughts

I have lost faith in love

strangling pain inside annihilated soul
life time imprisonment under the dazzling sky
gust of fate cascading my entire self hood
prayers lying unanswered in filth

I have lost faith in love

enchanting hymns of sorrow in suburb of darkness
waning slowly in the cradle of tainted love
foreseeing renaissance of the slaughtered heart
reawakening under the spell of curse till eternity

I have lost faith in love

ramblings..

har dard ki ek umar hai

har dard ki ek hadh hai

jab dard ki hadh paar hoti hai

toh sabse phele nazdeek khadi

un deewaron main dararye padti hai

jinhone yeh hadhe taye ki thi

 bas ab inteezar us hadh ke aaney ka hai

is dard ki umar khatam hone ka hai

bahut hui raat chalo ab so jao..

bahut hui raat chalo ab so jao

mere khwabon main ana hai tumhe chalo ab so jao

jhapakiyan lene lage hai taare bhi ab toh

chand bhi aankhein munade thithur raha hai

raat ka sannata pahara dekar chala bhi gaya 

taakh rahe hai khwab bhi takiye ke sirahane se

 bahut hui raat chalo ab so jao 

mere khwabon main ana hai tumhe chalo ab so jao

tik tik karti ghadi yuhi jala rahi hai

dastak de rahi neend palkon ko sula rahi hai

baaton ka silsila ab karo bhi khatam

aao bahaon main simat jao ke ab toh raat hi rahi

bahut hui raat chalo ab so jao 

mere khwabon main ana hai tumhe chalo ab so jao

..few more ramblings..

 ..I stole your shoes..

..just to feel how they bite...

..and damn they did bite a lot...

..how do you manage to run so fast with them..

..few ramblings..

They say it's not written in my hands..

..but among these criss-cross lines..

..I have found a place to write it down.